Here again?

My eyes were still blue. 'I am one person...'

i changed one last time

my eyes turned red. "im not who i was before...." i said before going unconscious.

I woke up but felt lonely. I wanted Madara to be here with me. When I looked around and noticed he wasn't here, I felt miserable. I didn't know how to explain it, but whenever he was with me I felt whole. I felt that I could be happy, that I didn't have to worry ever again. He made me feel warm instead of being cold to others. He was almost like a light that made me see, to make me feel better. I got up slowly and walked to the lake and stared at myself. I wasn't myself and I didn't know how to fix that. I then saw in my own reflection the monster I was and how sad my eyes looked. I then saw my parents look at me and mouth 'why' before they died. I waved my hand and the water disappeared. I didn't think my past would be getting this out of hand, but it was. I then realized it wasn't safe for anyone anymore. I tried to think but the only thing I could think of was Madara. I began to sing a bit faintly, "There were friends once beside me....and their voices soft as snow.....but now i am once alone...and now i am different..." memories played as I just stared waiting for someone to save me from my own hell. I then began to close my eyes.

A soft voice came from behind her.
"Kura...Kura!!!"
Madara called out who was looking for her.

His voice startled me and I looked over my shoulder and saw Madara. For some reason it took a while for my brain to process what was happening but I got up consciously and kissed him on the lips.

Madara held her in his arms and kissed her back.
"Are you alright?"

"no..." I groaned, "I feel like Sh*t......." I replied bitterly nuzzling him. I felt better since he was here but physically I was in poor condition. I felt as though I just gotten out of Tsukoyomi.

"Hmm..." I was bored so I put a bandana over my head so I couldn't see. I then took out some chakra thread and began playing with it. I began to make designs. After that I got bored and I tried to use it behind my back. After a while the threads got stuck and now they were around my wrists. I was agitated and couldn't get them off, "Ugh...d*mn...I can't see...." I turned and tried to undue the chakra strings but couldn't. "........Stupid chakra threads...." I growled trying to get them undone but failing. "Gah..." I gave up walking around. I then bumped into a tree. "Oww...." I said.

Still inside his tent
Reading

I sighed, "Madara can you help me?" i was irritated that I couldn't break the threads. I knew Madara could but I couldn't.

Puts his book down...

I sighed waiting for Madara.

Zak walks outside the tent

I glared at the chakra thread because it was tight and Madara knew how to snap it, "Ugh...wake up Madara you lazy butt!" I sighed.

Zak walks outside the tent

I sighed getting up, "Madara?" I asked.


OOC: omfg...im actually crying right now...

"Huh?"
Madara said as he shot up from his slumber.
*touches her and strings snap*
"..*blinks*...why was there a string?"

"cuz i was using it to make things, "I said taking the blindfold off.

"What things?"
Madara said resting his head on kura's shoulder.
"...sleepy...zzzzzz......"

"You know how you can make designs..." I said partly tired too.

".....hm....zzzzzzz...."
Madara fell asleep and began dreaming.
dream:
"....Go attack the elders!!...."
Madara commanded the man standing in front of him.
"...Madara-sama, I obey your orders..."

The whole village was destroyed and little fires spread in the streets. Only one head of one of the hokages stood still.
"..It think you did too much, Toushi."
Madara said smirking. The man only nodded and admired his work.

I was to intune with his thoughts and I got sucked into his dreams.

In dream:
"Where am i?" I saw the village being destroyed. I looked at the person and hissed tackling him
"WHY DID YOU DESTROY ThIS VILLAGE!?" I yelled at the guy
"WHO WOULD DO THIS@?" I screamed at him

Madara's tsukuyomi suddenly activated in his dream.

"Do not interfere!" Madara said hissing at Kura.
"Don't get ourself involved or I'll kill you." He said glaring at her.

The man stood up and and glared at Kura.

"That girl is a hindrance, can I finish her?" He said activating his artificial chakra nerves.

Madara suddenly woke up and yelled.
"Noo!!!!!.......oh....it's a dream...oh well."

I woke up and flinched, I then looked at Madara terrified. "W-Why!?" I then backed away slowly shaking, "Would you really do that!?" I yelled still shaking almost crying and I took another step back. I felt as though i didn't know who he was, why would he do that. I was confused and i shook my head running to the lake looking at my reflection trying to understand.

he doesn't love me...i know that now....maybe he thinks we shouldn't be together....maybe...its because I am not haichu...I could never be her...

i tried to think and i finally realized everthing.

he loves Haichu...she was so much more than i am....

I realized that she had talent and was able to be cold just like Madara. I couldn't even killed someone with all the power in the world. Haichu could have easily destroyed the village in one blow and make Madara happy. I was the oppisite, I wanted to keep the village alive. I then remembered that I had no choise for the village and it would be destroyed by me and Haichu, I couldn't escape that fact, and it tore me apart.

Somewhere I was in a fight with 3 vampires, "Kura, use your eyes...see past these illusions..." my words echoed inside her head.